All Faith

Knowledge and Trust

After a long pause, here’s me breaking the silence.

In the year and a half since I last wrote, I completed my senior year of college at Liberty University, graduated with a Bachelor of Arts in Biblical Studies, and have been working a full-time job with the university.

But other things have happened too. I ended a deep friendship and it ached for many months. I lost communication with old friends who moved away after graduating. I lost communication with deep friends from camp who had to get jobs and livelihoods. I spent nearly four months after graduation desperately searching for a job before finally getting one. And my job’s abnormal hours and mentally-strenuous nature have isolated me. On top of all that, in the last two months I hit a point of depression that was absolutely unbearable.

One would think, You know that suffering happens, and things on Earth are temporary. You know that God is good, and that He is always with you. What’s wrong? You literally have a degree that says you know this.

And they’d be right. But here’s the point of humanness: I have a diploma in my closet that certifies that I have this knowledge – I could even teach it, and I have – but faith is an interplay, and trust is something that I’ve always struggled with. Knowledge is not the same as trust.

All Camp Faith

End of a Chapter

Yesterday marked the last day for me at Carolina Creek Christian Camps, a journey that began in May 2015. With three summers and a year internship under my belt, eighteen total months were dedicated to that small corner of Texas I have grown to love so much.

I have learned to love much, meeting and greeting in great excess of twenty thousand people over my time there. Whether it was a public school’s team-building retreat, a church event, or a fraternity service project, I have learned to love all who come through the gates of camp. And it overflows into the other areas of my life as well.

All Faith

Love Seeks Not Its Own

My time this summer has been consumed with camp, friendships, and reading. When I started Søren Kierkegaard’s Works of Love, I did not at all expect for it to take the entire summer to read, but I am thankful because I have learned such incredible things about what love is, how it works, and what it looks like. Most recently, I have finished a chapter on how Love Seeks Not Its Own.

The age in which we live constantly tells us to look out for Number One, and Christianity is no stranger to this idea. We know that serving others is of the utmost importance, and denying our own desires is essential to our faith. In Philippians 2:3-4, Paul writes, “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.”

Kierkegaard writes:

When a human being seeks the love of another human being, he seeks to become loved himself; this is not sacrifice; sacrifice would consist precisely in helping the other person to seek God . . . Therefore, if a man seeks to become the object of another person’s love, he deliberately and falsely seeks his own, for the only true object of a human being’s love is love, which is God, who therefore in a deeper sense is not an object at all, since he is himself love.

To seek to be the object of another person’s love is a futile effort – it has no sacrifice and no depth. One who seeks to become the object of another person’s love seeks his own interests, and not the interests of the other. It is futile because the only real object of love is God Himself, and not a person at all.

All Devotions in John

Washing Feet … Differently

If you want to hear a story that’s been told over and over and over and over and over again in circles of the church when it comes to serving one another, it’s definitely the Jesus-washes-the-disciples’-feet story. But what if there was a more practical way to understand it?

In John 13, during the Passover meal, Jesus got up, took off His outer garment, wrapped Himself with a towel, and sat down to wash His disciples’ feet. Immediately, everyone in the room was taken aback. Streets were nasty. Feet were disgusting. Washing feet was the job of the lowliest of servants – not even Jewish servants were expected to wash guests’ feet. Yet here was the rabbi, taking on the worst job these other eleven guys could think of.